Sunday, January 6, 2013

Taking Him Out, Drawing Me In

Tomorrow he was supposed to go back to school. My little man. But he won't be returning to his little preschool this season. Not that they did anything wrong. But I chose to listen to that whisper that kept reappearing no matter how many times I would push it away. Have you ever had a thing where He whispered over and over to you and you thought, I think you meant that for someone else, God? Don't you know me, God? I challenge the "stay-at-home" role as it is! I struggle against being "that" mom who gets lost in her children and then ponders after they leave, "Uh...who am I?" I have serious issues with this due to my childhood...but that's another blog. My point is...that I listened. And I acted. I moved. Despite my weird insecurities, my knowledge of myself who is spacey and hard to pin down to do anything organized for more than three days, I am chosing to follow Him in this adventure of homeschooling my boys. So, here we go...and I feel more at peace than ever being here. Being mommy.

1 comment:

Elise said...

Yes, I totally identify with this. I too felt God's whisper the same thing. This is my second year homeschooling. I still don't consider myself the "homeschool" type. But I do consider myself the obedient-to-her-Father type, so if He wants me to do it, I say "yes". I have wonderful days with it and challenging days, but I wouldn't trade it for anything!